Feeling Uncomfortable...

I guess my Blog today is for what I thought I lost yesterday.

Yesterday was my day off and one of the plans for the day off was go to the Geo Center with Tiffany and her friends Alfred and Robyn, but I backed out in the last second. As you can imagine Tiffany was upset over the situation because Alfred is a good friend of hers and he wanted to meet me. For some reason I felt really uncomfortable meeting him and I didn't know why. It's not only him I was uncomfortable around, she has one large group of friends, with one part of them I feel the same towards as well.

So I went to a friend of mine that I spent four years with and because of that, knows me very well. It made me realise one thing about my relationship with Tiffany and the fact that it's a totally new experience with me. What do I mean by that you might ask? Well my past few relationships, it seemed like it all started the same way and ended the same way. So dating a girl that dated two guys in the same group made me a little insecure at first and still do to be honest with you. I don't think I can handle hanging out with my girlfriend's ex's. The reasoning for that is that knowing at one point of her life she felt something towards them as well. In addition, I didn't feel like I belonged in that group when I was around and that's fine with me. It's definately going to take some getting use to, but I'll never tell Tiffany in who her friends are. So Alfred, if you read this by chance, I am sorry for not giving you a chance, I was just totally nervous about the whole situation, but next time (if there is a next time) I will try my best to meet you.

Here are two comments that Lish told me which helped a lot with this situation:
- "but at least you know that she is not withthem and she is with you and there is a reason for that"
- "you both care alot for each other, so loosen up and have fun ‘cause really you shouldn’t even care that anyone else exists, just that you’re there and she’s there and that you’re there together and that’s what you both want"

Tiffany and I started out great, it might of been due to a flip of a penny (which I still have) or the fact it was meant to happen. We just spent an amazing summer together and at first I was worried about the fall, but she convinced me otherwise in showing how she feels as well. Last night proved that it's going to take a lot to break this relationship where the connection is so strong. I know I said I was sorry yesterday Tiffany, but I am saying it again and if I get an other chance to meet Alfred, I'll try to relax and be there with you this time. However, I still not sure about next Friday, but hopefully you understand more at this moment.

I don't know who reads my blog, but whoever does, there is one thing I like for you all to know, I Love this girl and it's going to take a lot to prove me otherwise :D.